>Yesterday I was fired.
This is ironic for so many reasons:
- I was wondering what I would write about for 30 days. Now I have fodder aplenty!
- I had decided to go on a spending fast for 30 days. Now, it is a mandatory spending freeze (but I was prepared!!)
- Plans are in the works for a second blog, and I was wondering when I would find time to work on it. And here, handed to me on a platter, is time.
- 30 days of thanks – I had signed up for this as a blogging theme in November….
This last one, I think, is less ironic than it seems. Now I realize so much more what I have to be thankful for. And, honestly, I’m thankful for the firing. Many of you will recall the echoes of “professional crisis” in recent posts; obviously this was not an entire surprise. I’ve been unhappy for a long time.
I’ve been wanting to step out in an entirely different direction – it’s hard when you have a decent-paying regular job and the safety of security and routine. Now I’m thrust out where there are no limits, and I can go in any direction I please.
Heck, I even get two weeks paid without even working!
But it still sucks, too. My pride is smarting. I wonder what people will think of me. I’m worried about finances. I’m wishing we had invested in a laptop so I’d have some ability to work outside of home, where Olive will want my attention every five seconds even when Daddy is watching her. I suddenly think lottery tickets might be a wise investment, and I’m entering myself in radio contests to win money.
But I seem to remember lately praying for a way to work on my humility and character, and to start over.
Note to self: be careful what you ask for.